09.09.19

Today my parents have been married for 58 years.  A testament to a commitment and life together.  It was bitter sweet.  Never in all my imagining could I have expected not to be working towards that with my husband.

But life throws you curve balls and it is what you do with those that matter.

Sooooooooo

After a year and a half of having my life turned upside down,  and nearly a year to the termination of my marriage what have I done with the curve balls..............

• Felt very sorry for myself
• Felt more sorry for myself
• Gotten very angry
• Cried a lot and then some more
• Tried to be mature
• Realised that was not working
• Cried some more
• Raged at my ex- husband
• Cried
• Self destructed
• Rationalised
• Realised logic did not work
• Raged
• Self destructed some more
• Collected myself and reverted to being mature
• Realised I sucked as an adult

THEN I STOPPED

............well actually I was encouraged 

I began to paint,  I had a beautiful, wise and very tolerant friend who was not going to let me give up.  So we began to paint on a group together.  

This is part of the process that is saving my life.......and hopefully giving hope to the people that have been irrevocably damaged in this process.

P.S.  I love the people who have never given up on me and you all know who you are...........thank you.